Insignificant

I am sure we all have those moments. You know the ones. I feel small and like I am living a life that is of no consequence and very insignificant. I have no purpose and no matter what I do, no one notices.

My heart and head know the answer to that thinking –

God has a plan. – Jeremiah 29:11

For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says the LORD, thoughts of peace and not of evil, to give you a future and a hope.
We are all a part of the body and with a purpose. – I Corinthians 12:12-31

For as the body is one and has many members, but all the members of that one body, being many, are one body, so also is Christ. (verse 12)
My life was determined by God before I was ever knit together in my mother’s womb; I was made. – Psalm 139:13-14
For You formed my inward parts;
You covered me in my mother’s womb.
I will praise You, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
Marvelous are Your works,
And that my soul knows very well.
God is working in the lives of His children, who serve Him. – Rom 8:28

And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose.
I have purpose and calling. – 2 Timothy 1:9

who has saved us and called us with a holy calling, not according to our works, but according to His own purposeand grace which was given to us in Christ Jesus before time began,

I can spout the thinking that should buoy me up with the best of them. But sometimes, it just isn’t enough.

When I have brought up concerns and am brushed off.
When I am told that something important is going to happen and to be prepared, just to have nothing happen and it not to be mentioned again.
When someone looks at you and tells you, literally, you wouldn’t understand because you are not smart enough.
When you are told that the only thing someone thinks of when I walk into a room is a particular program that I work hard to serve.

And then someone picks up the phone and calls. And you see, very clearly, God’s hand in it all.

This is what happened yesterday. I had literally just been discussing how very inconsequential I felt my life was in the grand scheme of things. The phone rang. It was my mom and one of the first things she began telling me about was the apostle Andrew and the sermon she had heard that morning.

Andrew is not known for very much. Really, we don’t know much about him, even after scouring the scriptures to know more. But when I heard my mom talking about how quiet his life was compared to his brother, Peter, I realized very quickly that God was speaking.

He was whispering, through my mom’s voice, “you matter” and “Just like Andrew, I have something in mind for you.”

I spent some time early this morning studying more about Andrew and found myself amazed about how important he was, yet he is mentioned very little in scripture. But God. . .

I need to sit quietly and wait on that “but God” moment in my life. I will wait in prayer, for myself and for you. God has a moment coming in your life, too.

Blessings,
Lori, At Home.